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i’ll be using my blogspot account from now on…JUST the blogspot account for the blog entries…it’s more private and more convenient on my part…but i’m still keeping all the photos in my multiply account…and so here’s the link to my blogspot page…

 :: cLicK hEre ::

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…aWw!!..gRoSsnEsS!!sHiEt!…

received mail from a friend today..and since i cannot forward an e-mail from my yahoo account,decided to post the message here..gawd!!uber disgusting!!..

anyway,i’m still using my blogspot account for my entries.

here’s the copied message from my mail..

hiyah everyone!!
this will be a quickie..the past days have been really BUSY and boring..not really worth sharing..or maybe i was just too lazy to blog.

.and i’m currently on self-imposed rehab from my pc and the internet..i’m currently busy doing other stuffs..school stuffs to be exact..don’t miss me too much..haha..

by the way..we had our recollection today..the activities weren’t good to be honest..dissatisfied is the word pare!..but the foods were a mouth-watering..yummy..and so we just did a lot of picture taking..and more picture taking galore..that’s the best we could do to actually enjoy the day..did some uber simple picture quilts/collages..i’ll post all of them soon at my multiply account..

Luisa, pans and i (again!) having fun while on our way to the semenary in Makati and going back to school.

finally i found time to get back into blogging..i really missed this!..the first week’s been super duper busy for me..but i’m actually loving the second semester..with my blockmates-slash-girlfriends (minus one..i miss you karen)..the new professors,difficult yet interesting subjects,new seatmates,new classmates..loving everything!!

the week was pretty fine..we’ve met all the professors and they’re all great,superb..good money means good service,haha..so i think it’ll be okay if we’ll get stucked with them for like 5 months..oh i remember,i had this survey answered months ago..well the question goes something like this.."who do you hate the most in school?"..and i’d definitely,definitely never think twice because it’ll always be this one professor who thinks she’s exemplary and proficient enough not to treat"other"people in a just way..guess i was wrong..mean me!..because i just recently found out that she’s a real upright professor who treats her students in a refined and entrancing way,not to mention her countless achievements..i actually do find her class and the activities interesting and fun..hmp..enough!!so much nice things about this doctor viray..i love calling her doc!..and i love listening to her incessant stories..and i love attending her class..(oh come on!you were late the first meeting and absent on the second!whoopsy..)

anyway..accounting class this time will be way more side-splitting for sure..compare to the dilemma that we had during ms.dima era,hehe..sir Q(for quiambao)is really hilarious and so kulit with all these jokes that he utter.nonetheless,the accounting will be more grievous this time..but the professor seems to be really great in the field so i guess there’s nothing much to worry about his expertise,yet..and the college of accountancy distributed the practice sets already wherein we have to analyze and accomplish everything within 4 months or less..shiet!..we’ll be dealing with those papers for the next 4 months!??could you actually smell the C-L-U-E-L-E-S-S word?..coz we all do..we should figure everything out ourselves..and we must receive a satisfactory grade in it if we wish to stay in the program..challenging yet fun,i guess..*am hoping and praying*..the professor said that he’ll give a brief explanation about those stuffs couple of days before the submission..pa??imagine?!?!..argh!..but yeah i know it’s a blessing..and one should never complain..but i must admit that it can get very exhausting and arduous..well it’s worth the sacrifice anyway,right?..you’ll see a taste of the practice sets in the picture…

here’s another aggravating thing..the schedule for the week is so much tight for us accounting students yet nstp classes decided to give saturday classes aside from the thursdays–3:00-6:00 pm schedule that we’ll be having every week..tae talaga!bad trip!grrrr!..we had the first assembly for the semester this morning..same scenarios,same faces,same activities,same everything!..uninteresting at all!!..it’s always great to have your good friends beside you..photo-ops,kulitan and all..we should do with all our"vigor"to make the discussion not-so-boring as it seems..after the mind-numbling session,we’ve decided to unwind and go to the nearest mall for another food tripping..everyone else had their to-do’s all fixed up so they weren’t able to have lunch with us..on our way to robinson’s place along pedro gil,i saw one of the persons on my most-missed-people list..si pan-pan!..i really missed the girl..the laughs,kwentos,kulitan and everything..looking forward for another ultimate bonding with her and the rest of the girls..gawd!..how i terribly missing my girls…

love the picture!..pans,luisa and i having this intense and heavy lunch at sbarro..*burp*

went to atc earlier this afternoon..still haven’t watched any of the movies i wanna catch for the week..just did a lot of talking,and walking,and texting,and shopping,and buying stuffs and everything..afterwards,met up with my sister at frio mixx near our place..she treated us,me and ate abbie,for dinner. suddenly a guy shouted for my name and whoah..it was ervin..he was having dinner with his friends naman..we did a little chit-chatting..i also missed the guy..

i miss a lot of things lately…

free-time.
hours of talking and good foods with my betsy.
night-outs with friends.
lauging with the girls friends.
malls, malls, and more malls.
watching movies.
reading a good novel.
coffee shops anytime i feel like drinking one..with a good friend.
blogging almost everyday.

to compensate…

i shop!..

hOoray*hoOray!!..it’s my mom’s birthday today..she’s blowing 50 candles on her cake now*sigh*..oh my!we’re getting older and older na talaga..time flies really fast..
after this huge celebration tomorrow(well that’s because my mom’s 50),she’ll go out of the country for four,long(is it? nah!)days..i’ll miss you mom..
anyway..HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY MOM!!..and cheers to all the hardworking mothers in the whole world..being a mother is like the hardest yet most fulfulling full-time job in the world..whew!!what a real supergirls huh! wuhOo!!..so i guess it’ll be fine if i’ll get"too emotional"with my thoughts now..and yeah,this is MY blog anyway..right?..so brace yourselves people..haha..
my heartfelt thanks mom..for the never ending support and unconditional love.. for the understanding and comfort that you showered me..for the countless times you have believed in my capabilities..for the sacrifices,those sleepless nights that you did when i was younger..for the gentle words,the spirit of goodness and trust..for the encouragement that it is okay to fail and fall coz we always have you beside us..for telling me how to be strong and how to deal with this thing called life..for the foods,the clothes and other material things that i have failed to thank you..for theeducation,those learned from school and most especially for those i have learned directly from you..for the touching and inspiring stories of your life that you’ve shared to us..for the courage you showed and never regretting anything and everything because you have us..too many reasons that i can’t even enumerate even half of those mom.. 
it is a cliche’ but i would never ever exchange the life that i’m having right now..the person i become because of such wonderful parents like you and dad..dad is so lucky to have you and so are we,your tres marias..and if i will be asked to pick that mother i want to have..it will always be you mom..
you’ve really shown me what unconditional love is..though i often disappoint and hurt you..for being uber stubborn and all..i know this will never be enough but really..thanks mom..for everything!..salamat..

gawd!..enough enough!..am i being too dramatic or what??..i should be celebrating..should be happy(i am!!)..my mom is healthy..everyone in the family is healthy..and that is really something to be thankful for..oh by the way..i’d like to share these cute photos of mom and dad..the cake wasn’t really for mom..it was just for dessert actually..we just made fun of the cake(ate abbie provided the candle)..and mom..and the camera..napaaga tuloy yung birthday nya,haha..

happy birthday again mom,with all my love…

when i say.."i am into something"..i mean.."i am really INTO something in a crazy-passionate way"..it used to be one tree hill(err,i’m still into it actually)..up dharma down and some new-released-albums like john mayer’s,alanis morissette’s(and so on)..shoes..the internet and blogging world..hi-tech gadgets..shopping(as always!)..accounting problems(yeah,better believe it!)..spa and massages..DVD marathons..havaianas..going out and exploring different restaurants..basically foods!!..collecting cds..well..the list goes on..

guess who’s keeping me crazy-happy and passionate lately?..none other than derek-meredith-cristina-burke-george-izzie-alex-the nazi!(again)..i’ve got dvd copies of those and i’ve seen the entire second season already just this morning and i’m really dying to watch the third season..shiet!i’m badly craving for the 3rd season..i’ll be back at school again on monday..argh!..so it’ll be hard for me to watch the entire season in just a week..hai..anyway..life has never been the same since grey’s anatomy..i am so in love with it..AGAIN!! ..haha..

nga pala..aya and i went to seattle’s best at morato the other night..we just felt like we have to run to the nearest coffee shop to cap the night..and here’s our new favorite drink..Seattle’s Best Mint Tea..yummy..i can only describe it with a smile..a long,satisfied sigh and the relaxing feeling of sinking into a lush couch..

missed blogging so much..it’s been quite a while since i had my last entry here..

awww!sembreak!!really feels great to be FREE..with all the time in the world to spend!..no deadlines..no pressures..no homewoks..blah blah blahs..just plain gimmicks and pasarap-sa-buhay..haha..

anyway anyway..i love what i got..i got these FABULOUS sandals yesterday..soon as i saw this on the display window,i knew i just had to have it!..really do love it!..a brownish sandals with a ribbon in front..you just have to look at the picture anyway..haha..they’re so girlie=)..i can’t wait to wear them with my short denim skirt or capris..yadah!yadah..

loving sembreak..haha..loving night-outs..shiet!!..i definitely missed this!!..practically what you called LIFE..haha..

haven’t blogged for a real long time…my schedule has been pretty tight the past few weeks…well i guess it’ll be staying this way for the next 3 months or so…huhu…with this loaded works and school stuffs i’m working on…it’s really draining me!…argh!…but since i promised myself to pass the course,i can’t just pack up and go because i’m burned out…i have to deal with it ’til it’s finally over…hai…i tell myself this is going to be my last chance…time will tell…

the other day,i have decided to eat healthier!…yep!…foods!…haha…yum*yum…my friend mhaye told me about this place called GOOLAI…well it’s not actually a place but they make salads and sandwiches and you order a day earlier by email or phone…haha…sounds interesting!…i placed my very first order last week…so probably by wednesday i’ll tell mhaye to order this for me…

fresh greens with tuna and walnuts in ranch dressing

shrimp sandwich with alfalfa sprouts and walnuts in whole wheat

YUMMY!…

miSsEd bLoGgiNg aLoT..i’Ve bEeN sOoO dEpReSseD(pAriN!..)tHe wHoLe wEeK..aNd tRiEs sOoO hArd fOcUsiNg oN oTheR sTuFfs jUsT tO bE hApPy..sTilL..i wAsn’T abLe tO dO iT..hAii..bUhaY taLaGa..

gRabE!..i’Ve bEeN rEceiViNg cHaiN mEsSagEs siNcE tHiS aFtErnOoN..pLeAse..pRaY fOr oUr felLoW fiLipiNoS..

i wAs sOoO sHocKeD..rEalLy!..i’Ve nEvEr beEn tHis eMoTiOnaL iN mY eNtiRe liFe tOwArs oThEr pEopLe tHaT i dOn’t eVeN kNoW..i tHeN rEaLiZeD hOw fiLipiNoS reAlLy dO eXpEriEnCe sTarVatiOn..cAuSe oF pOvErTy..aNd eVeN cOrRuPtiOn..yEaH!..tHiS sHouLd bE tHe laSt "wAkE-uP calL" fOr eAcH aNd eVerY fiLipiNo..rEalLy..a tRagEdY!..
i hAve aCtuAlLy sPeNt mOsT oF tHe dAy wAtcHiNg tHe lOcaL teLeviSiOn pRogRamS..wAtcHiNg tHe uPdAteS oN tHe tRagEdy tHaT hAd hApPeNeD oN tHe sTamPeDe jUsT tHis mOrNiNg..wOwoWeE’s fiRsT aNniVeRsArY ceLebRatiOn aT uLtRa..tHe dEaTh tOlL hAs riSeN tO mOrE tHaN 70 aNd mOrE nUmBeRs aRe sTilL miSsiNg..aNd i cAn onLy iMagiNe tHe dEsPaiR tHaT sUrVivOrS aRe nOw fEeLiNg..wOnDeRiNg wHaT fAtE hAs bEsTowEd uPoN tHeiR miSsiNg lOvEd oNeS..fEaRiNg tHaT tHey aRe aLrEaDy dEad..aMoNg tHe uNrEcoGniZabLe cOrPsEs..aLmOsT tHe wHoLe cOuNtRy cOmMuNeD iN siLeNcE,gRiEf aNd pRaYeR..goVeRnMeNts aNd rAceS uNiTeD iN giViNg aiD..aNd iT’s uTterLy sAd(eVeN sAd iN aN uNdErsTaTeMeNt)..wAtChiNg tHe dEsTrUcTiOn aNd dEaTh tHaT tHe sTamPeDe hAve bRoUgHt..

nOw..mOrE tHaN eVer..wE sHouLd bE tHaNkFuL..wE hAve bEeN sPaReD oF tHiS sEvEre tRagEdy..mAnY oF oUr fElLoWmEn hAve sPeNt aNoThEr dAyS iN gRiEf aNd dEsPaiR..lOsiNg lOvEd oNeS..iNjUrEd..hUnGrY..hOpiNg tHat tHey wOuLd fiNalLy sEe tHeiR fAmiLy..iT iS reAlLy a tErRibLe siGhT..sO..tHe beSt rEsoLuTiOn iS tO hAve lEsS cOmpLaiNtS..lEsS gRuMbLiNg aNd gRuDgEs..aNd mOrE gRatEfuLnEsS..mOrE lOvE..mOrE cOmPaSsiOn..lOoK aRoUnD yOu..iF yOuR fAmiLy iS sTilL cOmpLeTe..nO mAtTeR hOw mUcH diSaGrEeMeNts aNd diFfErEnCeS sEt yOu aPaRt..bE tHanKfuL!..yOuR jOb..nO mAtTeR hOw tiRiNg aNd dReAdFuL iT cAn bEcOmE..bE tHaNkFuL!..bE tHaNkFuL fOr fRiEndS..pEopLe yOu lOvE..aNd pEopLe wHo lOvE yOu bAcK..i gUeSs tHaT nOw..mOrE tHaN eVeR..i aM vErY gRatEfuL..i’Ve nEvEr feLt sO lUcKy..i dOn’T hAve mUcH..bUt i hAve mOrE tHaN eNoUgH..tHaNks eVerYoNe..

oUr pRaYerS aRe vErY mUcH nEeDeD bY tHe viCtiMs oF tHis dReaDfuL tRagEdY..lEt uS pRay fOr tHoSe wHo hAve sUrviVeD..wHo wilL bE dEaLiNg wiTh tHiS tRauMa fOr mOsT oF tHeiR liVeS..aFtEr sEeiNg wHaT tHeY hAvE eXpEriEnCeD..lEt uS pRaY fOr tHoSe wHoSe liVeS hAve bEeN tAkeN sO sUdDenLy..iN tHe mOsT hOrRibLe wAy..lEt uS pRaY fOr tHoSe wHo hAve loSt lOvEd oNeS..aNd lEt uS pRay tHat tHiS tRagEdY wOuLd nEveR hApPeN aGaiN..aNd tHat oUr lOvEd oNeS wOuLd nEveR gO tHrOuGh sUcH a pAiNfuL eXpEriEnCe aS tHiS..

tHe bEsT tHaT wE cAn dO iS tO pRaY..fOr bOtH tHe sUrVivOrS..aNd tHoSe wHo hAve diEd..aNd rEfLeCt oN oUr liVeS..hOw bLeSsEd wE aRe..hOw kiNd GoD hAs bEeN tO uS..hOw mUcH wE sHouLd bE tHaNkFuL fOr.

eTeRnaL rEsT gRaNt uNtO tHeM o LoRd aNd lEt pErpEtUaL liGhT sHiNe upOn tHeM..mAy tHey reSt iN pEaCe..AMEN..

tHaNkS fOr rEaDiNg..tHeY rEalLy nEeD eVeryOnE’s pRayErS..

met up with my best friend last monday at glorietta..best friend to the rescue(tnx ches!)..we haven’t seen each other for a very very long time so we did a lot of catching up,stories and all..being with him is always like therapy for me..he’s the only person i can really talk to about anything and everything..and he knows and understands me inside and out..he and his family are thinking of migrating for greener pastures=(..i think of what it’s like without my best friend around..when he’s no longer just a phone call and a cab ride away..it’s a sad thought=(..but of course..i’m here to support him..and i wish them luck..goodluck!..

haii..days that passed on my 2006 didn’t work out that well=(..i was really hoping to start the year right..but i didn’t..it even turned out to be the worst scenario ever in my life ever!..i tried sOoO hard..pero in some ways..parang may pumipigil..ang hirap pala talaga!..sobra..

why is it so hard?…
..letting go of a person i’ve learned to love soOo much..so much as myself..
..pretending i’m okay when inside i’m dying in pain..
..trying so hard to hide what i really feel..
..letting go..because everytime i see him or even talk to him..i only fall deeper and deeper..
..thinking of him every waking and sleeping moment but i know that he never even thinks a single thought of mine..
..lying in bed each night thinking of that special one i can’t have again..
..shielding my heart to love somebody..
..taking the risk to fall in love again..
..falling in love with someone i didn’t mean to fall in love with..
..loving a person too much..soOoO much..

siguro i really deserve this!..i’ve done so many things in the past without even knowing na i would end up hurting someone..hurting myself..at na magkakaganto..and i’m really really sorry for that..pero maxado nang late..i guess bad karma na nga toh..worst karma!..geez..thanks!!..sobrang hirap hirap kasi eh!..better nga siguro not to hold on to someone like it’ll last forever..never plan..never wish..never expect..for the moment that thing leaves you..it hurts like hell..sobra!..i wasn’t aware..siguro i wasn’t ready yet talaga to enter those kind of stages in life..hindi ako sanay!..hindi ko makaya..maxado din ako nabigla siguro..pero i really did my best..we did everything we could..pero i guess our best wasn’t enough nga talaga..paxenxa na talaga..

pan forwarded me a quotation and it goes like this..na if love fails,set yourself free..let your heart spread its wings and fly again..remember,you may find one love and lose it,but when love dies..you never have to die with it..e bakit diko magawa?!..yeah!..the hardest part nga is letting go..sobrang masakit!..so i’ve decided not to let go..i’ll just wait..kahit matagal..o kahit sobrang useless.."kung kami talaga..kami!"..right?!..sabi nga ni rix..you can’t hold on if he needs to walk away..as hard as it is,you can’t beg him to stay..you can’t hold him down,try as you may..but sometimes life isn’t easy..and things just won’t go on your way..so hold your head up..be thankful and pray..rejoice for the times he gave you..and remember..if it’s meant to be..he’ll come back for you someday..so technically..yun na nga siguro..i’ll just leave my life according to what it should be..i’ll probably try to be happy kahit masakit..eventually..masasanay naman din siguro ako diba?!..i’ll change..i’ll definitely and should for the better..i should start nga talaga on myself bago mandamay ng iba diba?..para if ever..everything will be fine..everything will be okey na..

this one’s really true..a heart break isn’t as loud as a bomb exploding..sometimes..it can be as quiet as feather falling..and the most painful thing is that..nobody hears it but you..haha..thanks pinx..sobra!..sobrang totoo..sana maging happy ako..it’s a choice anyway!..sabi nga ni ate..don’t let anyone hold your happiness in their hands..hold it in yours so it will ALWAYS be with your grasp..stay happy..remember..its not merely an emotion..its also a choice..

guys..sobrang thank you for always being there for me ah..sobrang maraming maraming salamat talaga..i really cannot put into words how thankful i am having each and everyone of you as my friend..you’ve always been there for me..lalo na pag times na sobrang kelangan ko kayo..for making me believe na i can kahit diko talaga kaya..ginagawa nyo talaga lahat to comfort me..lar,pinky,cathy,paula,rix..sobrang thankful talaga ko kasi i met all of you..kelangan ko kasi talaga ng mga kausap eh..kelangan ko kayo..and you’ve always been with me..sobrang gumagaan yung pakiramdam ko sa inyo..nahihiya na nga talaga ko sa inyo eh..maxado nadin kasi ako nakakaabala..lani,jinx,mazel..super salamat din talaga ah..for making me strong and everything..for listening sa lahat ng mga hinanakit ko..my leche’ tropa..via..thanks friend!Ü..you even gave me a rose..jhai,jhei,jubi,angge,yani..grabe..sobrang touched ako..maraming maraming salamat..ria..darren..grabe..sobrang laking tulong ng ibinibigay nyo sakin..times na i really don’t know what to do..hindi ko alam mga pwede kong magawa sa sarili ko..anjan kayo palagi..making me realize how valuable life is..na everything should not end up just like this..salamat..sobrang salamat talaga..alied,meanne,alroy,chelle,jean,karen,makoy,caloi..though we seldom sees one another nalang..you guys are always there parin to listen to me..sa mga problems ko..you guys are so great!..everyone’s doing their best talaga to comfort me..you really made me stronger..helped me gain my courage..inspite of having different scheds talagang anjan padin kayo to rescue me..crying shoulder talaga..thanks guys!..i was so relieved being with all of you..

i would like to apologize sa iba kung hindi ko nasasabi..di ako nakakapag-open..ayoko din kasing mag-iba yung tingin nyo sakin eh..hindi ko padin talaga kaya..pero i know anjan lang din kayo lagi for me..maraming salamat..

mom..dad..sisters ko..i’m sOoOo lucky to have you as my family..you’re always there to support and to guide me..you’re actually one of the reasons kung bat kinakaya ko kahit sobrang mahirap..i felt like i really don’t deserve you as my family kasi you’re too good for me talaga..though i’ve always been a pain in everyone’s butt..still naffeel ko how loving you all are to me..nahihiya din ako kasi nababalewala ko kayo most of the time..i want to tell you how much i love you and how much i thank God for being with this family kaso i can’t..sobrang hindi ako vocal..hindi expressive..sorry sa lahat and sobrang thank you talaga..inspiring words..mga pangaral..those really helped me to go on with my life’s journey..nawawalan nako nang pag-asa talaga eh..sana makaya ko pa talaga..

sobrang maraming salamat talaga..siguro someday i can repay all of you..kahit na alam kong hindi na kayo naghahanap nun..para sanyo i’ll do everything i could para maging happy..para maging okay..siguro maxado nga din lang ako naging selfish..

thank you talaga..

this new year gave me a very important lesson..COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS..for the past few months,i’ve been complaining about being very tired and not having enough time to feel the christmas spirit..the holiday!!..now i realized how blessed i am..God has been so kind and generous to me..my blessings have been flowing in non-stop..and because of that..i’ve learned so many things and had many thoughts still running on my mind..my family has been very supportive..especially my parents..mom and dad were encouraging me to go on..keep on accepting those opportunities regardless of how hard it may be..everyone in the family,my parents and sisters,had been very supportive and understanding..i don’t know how they does it..but they still love me to bits inspite of my biting moods and my getting angry for no reason at all..i share a bond with my friends that’s indestructible..even if we don’t see each other for weeks or even months..i still have my great friends who can make the sun shine even on unbearable days..and even if i’ve been very busy this month..there were still lots of shared moments with my loved ones..laughing,telling stories and enjoying each other’s company..opening gifts at midnight and making fun of the really stupid presents:)..yes,i’m soOoO blessed..and i feel so foolish complaining about really dumb things..this year’s christmas gave me a knock on the head..be thankful!..be grateful!..life’s been kind..and God is always good..instead of sulking in the dark whenever it rains..i should just go out with arms stretched out and savor each raindrop!..for after it pours,the skies always turn blue,the flowers are brighter,the land refreshed and things get sweeter and better..have a blessed new year to all of us..